My mind is playing tricks on me. Please help. I need spiritual advice.?

So here is the story. I cheated on my boyfriend 3.5 years ago. he forgave me. I try to forgive myself but it is hard. Now my paranoia that he will cheat on me is ruining our relationship. I think horrible thoughts. I am scared to leave him alone. I get upset if he is gone too long. I get very upset when he talks to other girls. I have invaded his privacy time and time again I keep checking his email. harassing him about other women. I feel I am pushing him towards it. I keep asking him to leave and he won't. The thing is. I LOVE HIM! I am so passionate about him. AFter 7 years together I still melt when he touches me. We hold each other every night. We have a beautiful daughter together. WE get along good when I am not being stupid and irrational. I start all the arguments. He is so laid back and will do anything to put a smile on my face. we do not lack in anything. I feel like my mind is breaking down. I obsess over every little thing. I cry bad when he gets stern w/meMy mind is playing tricks on me. Please help. I need spiritual advice.?
First of All, i want to wish you all my luck that things work out. Here is something you need to look at... if he will do anything to put a smile on your face, he LOVES you!!! It seems like he really cares and wants you to get better. I think you should talk to someone. If you are too embarrassed to talk to a psychiatrist, talk to one of your good friends, or family members. They will definitely help you!!!!!!!!!





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You asked him to leave, and he wouldn't. why? because he wants you fo rthe rest of his life!My mind is playing tricks on me. Please help. I need spiritual advice.?
You need to focus on who you are, what your desires and needs are in life. Then decide if your relationship is part of where you should be in the future. Your relationship is NOT your life. It is a distraction unless the only purpose you have in life is to make babies, and you don't necessarily need a relationship for that. Figure out who you are, and your boyfriend will have respect for you. If you live for only the relationship, you have no life of your own to offer, and thus, you will always be insecure.
If there is no mutual trust in a relationship, the relationship cannot endure for too long. Learn to trust again, or you will indeed lose your man. Get professional help is needed.
The past is in the past. Forget about it and concentrate in the now. You are very insecure and if you can't overcome this, you need to let him go. Straight yourself up or let him go before somebody gets hurt.
im no expert, but i think you should spend some alone time with him. no kids, no problems, no nothing. take a vacation to somewhere really nice and just relax with him.
Do something for yourself, like take night classes.
You violated his trust by cheating which should make him not trust you. Now you say that he's not good enough for your trust. This relationship is over or it wil be soon. It has soured like milk that was left out on the counter. Try to be faithful next time!
it sounds like you really love each other. i would say get counseling for both of you. if he loves you that much he will go. he needs to quit doing things to feed your insecurities too. when you pray to God .... don't forget to


wait for Him to answer before you get off your knees.


God Bless.
you should go to see a shrink i know wut does she know i dont even know this girl BUT........it helped me i had the sam issue and its all good now!
listen. if your man isn't doing wrong, dont push him 2 it. he loves you, obviously. support him. trust him. u have 2 learn to forgive yourself. no one is perfect. u made a mistake, forgive yourself. he loves you. cheating is probably far from his mind. treat him right, let him see that he means everything to u. and you have to try to stop being insecure----or else one day you may loose him. as for not getting any answers from God. give it time. God answers our prayer on his time, not ours. plus, he doesn't allow anything to happen to u that he know you cant handle.