Need some spiritual advice,....?

Ok where do I start? I am your average person, see the thing is I feel that I am something more.





I believe in God and I am a catholic. I lost my faith last year, but I am gradually coming back to it.





Since starting to regain my faith I have noticed a few things.





1. I get premonitions. Its like I am not thining then it happens, and for that second my brain gets ';stuck';, like I loose the power to act on it.





2. i can see through people. Like, in a split second of a glance i can see through them and find the good.





3. I am sure that heaven exists. I know y'all maybe think that it has been put in my mind since I was a kid. But recently, I have got a very strong feeling that it does but i cant explain it. Its like I know but I have no way of explaining it.like i have been told.





4.I talk to someone. Yes it sounds mad I know. but its not like I talk to myself. Sometimes when i do, i actually look as if the person is standing in front of me. and often i will get the feeling that i have been acknowledged. or i will get a shiver down my spine,





Basically, what am i? Do i have something special that is starting to show?Need some spiritual advice,....?
I think you should research schizophrenia:- It emerges during adolescence and early adulthood and psychotic experiences often include auditory hallucinations (your point 4). People with schizophrenia also have delusions - false or irrational beliefs that are fixed (your point 3). People with schizophrenia also may appear inconsistent, manic or emotionally stunted (your point 2 might be an example). The brain getting stuck (your point 1) is also a symptom... as is a sense of megalomania i.e. the feeling you are special.Need some spiritual advice,....?
You shouldn't trust your feelings and ';premonitions';. You need to talk to God, not just some weird someone who makes you shiver, and you need him to talk to you through his word.





I don't know you, but I know that all of us are sinners who need to atoning sacrifice of Jesus to be forgiven, that we need to turn from our sins and trust in him.
It may be that God is touching you and wanting you back. We can not know god by our own strength, knowledge, beauty and etc. He descends, we don't ascend. You are a spirit soul in essence and this material world is not your home. You need a spiritual home, spiritual food and so on. Some people don't ever come to their senses in this life time and some do. That is a fact. Have you ever thought of trying meditation?
Ummm...





I'm with you and 1 and 3 and 4. 2 I don't know about.





You seem to be somewhat mystical. You would probably be interested in some of the writings of the Spanish mystics of the 1500 and 1600s.





http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spanish_mys鈥?/a>





They had many, shall we say ';interesting experiences';, and their works might be of interest to you.





St. Teresa of Avila and St. John of the Cross are my personal favorites. See if you can find something by them at a used bookstore. It might help.





good luck.
You must be possessed if that's true. You need to leave the catholic church, idols, Mary wroshiping, etc... Repent and ask Jesus freedom. He is powerful to do it.
You are quite, quite mad.
The best advice that I can give to you on this delicate matter is to try and obtain a spiritual director (Priest) who will wok with you and discern your state.


Meantime it is not unusual for someone like yourself to be given an imput of actual grace so as to draw you back to God and your faith, some call this a re-conversion and it is pretty common.


You should try your best to remain quiet and humble about your feelings and be careful that you do not allow these to become a source of pride which is very dangerous, finally maintain a daily prayer life and by doing so remain close to God and under His powerful protection.


God bless.
It sounds like you have been through a stressful period in your life. Possibly the boundaries that your subconscious mind has put up are beginning to disintegrate... allowing you to see and react to things that have been there all the time.





There is a saying that those of us who are a little cracked let the Light out. But I feel it works the other way, too... the love of God is also allowed to pour in...





Watch your cognitive abilities... if you feel your are being overwhelming distracted, I recommend you seek out a professional either in the psychiatric or theological field.





The fact that you can recognize your predicament bodes well for you.